Monday, August 18, 2008
this is my 4th day in darwin. for the past 3 days i have stayed in 4 stars and 5 stars hotel. this has become somewhat like a vacation (for now) and the initial fears of being unable to fit in have been quicly dispelled. the loadmasters and the aircrew have been amiable. it certainly does a great deal to help someone who is foreign to the entire culture in a flying unit fit in with ease.
i know little about confucianism. reading up on it has left me embarrassed at myself for the way i have been treating my parents thus far. however, much as i want to show genuine concern for them, the emotions do not come out naturally. somehow, i feel foisted upon to show concern. back in the ancient ages i would have been labelled an unfilial child.
i doubt that i am the only child that have felt this before. yet, being part of the comfortable majority (i believe so) is hardly a good reason to continue such behavior.
disturbed you at 4:57 PM