Tuesday, November 11, 2008

I am not exactly sure what have I picked up over the last 2 years. Probably a myriad of skills that I just cannot define at the moment. Probably an enhanced vocabulary of profanities. Definitely not better table tennis skills. But, oh yes, for one sure thing, getting the award was the highlight. It was instrumental in every way it turned out useful. I guess I worked for it because I badly needed it, rather than wanted it. Now, on hindsight, I just hope that I had deserved it at the very least.

It could have been better if I need not spend a large majority of my time cooped up in that dark hole. It could have been better if I have been forced to communicate to people, like a platoon of 30 or something. Could it have been better if I had been more affable, spent more effort making friends irregardless of what they had reciprocated? Would it have been better if I had not allowed myself to bask in the warmth of deceptive praises? Would it have made a difference if I had spent more time swatting balls than reading books?

Several unanswered questions that will never be answered again.