Monday, November 5, 2007
i'm blogging from the sim room now. cw and benji just happened to stay back and we're here "doing our work". i'm supposed to edit anand's speech but i can't see what else can i improve. anyway, it's his speech anyway. i'm not going to be some secretary in the president's office writing speech for people because it'll sound so unlike them, but more like me. it makes me wonder how many of the rallies that we hear are actually crafted entirely by the speaker himself.
anyway, i just came back from the afs idol competition. i must say that the event was very well done. yet in a way or another, this has made me feel very inferior. i can't see myself hosting an event on stage. i can't see myself being a people's magnet. i am just a quiet, slightly introverted, but quite hardworking young boy in the course. yet, i am to receive an award.
whatever way i can try to argue, we can never disagree that people are drawn towards external experssions of their capabalities. seen from the outside, i doubt people will ever regard me as a competent person. an award so what? people will never respect you if you are unable to portray that you are capable. which is a very sad thing because i believe that there are many people in the world who in fact possess great ability, which are unfortunately suppessed by their inability to reach out to the world. it's an antagonistic affair.
please understand dear. it's difficult to talk to you when there is immediate work to be done and more so when my course mate is just opposite me working too. i know that sometimes i committ the same mistake to you. but yeah, please understand.
disturbed you at 9:17 PM