Wednesday, April 16, 2008
i'm not in the best of moods now. having to wake up at 4.45am the next day certainly doesn't help and realising my musical inadequacies certainly doesn't either.
i realised that for the past 5 years i had a girl to confide in whenever i needed some words of comfort. now that everyone has found love there's no way that i can go back to old ways again. Calling the last few weeks of life a new phase isn't way too inappropriate. i really haven't lived my life like that before.
i am home more than i should these days. but i shall try to make life more fulfilling by scrutinizing every single page on the newspaper, read about worldy affairs on the net and attempt to make music on my guitar. i shall live a parasite off my family, settling my meals on their money to save more for myself. i shall aim to finish my first 42km in 4 hours, so that i can spend the next few days resting without any need for thoughts. i shall initiate more conversations over MSN, especially to boys, so that i can get to know more people and become more of good boy myself.
i'm not in a good mood now because you ain't around.
disturbed you at 11:29 PM