Thursday, May 1, 2008


and so PUB contacted me on Monday to inform me that they will be offering the scholarship. the details are yet unknown but the HR manager claimed that it is an overseas award, which gives me the ticket to London. i shan't be too excited for now, until i receive the details (just in case, lo and behold, the HR manager made a mistake. shit always happens in these applications. i'm thoroughly amazed how one can get rejected for medicine just because his surname starts with Z and the administrators forgot to schedule him for an interview).

even if the claim turned out true, i guess i will still need to give the offer a thorough consideration before making the final decision. working in the water industry was never really part of my plans till recently, and i'm afraid that i'm merely jumping onto the bandwagon - and as such, a disaster looms in the shadow. but nonetheless, the industry does have it's special attractions as well, especially the sense of purpose and satisfaction one can receive by working for a particular cause. In this case, water is of immediate concern to all living beings, hence the added X-factor. more importantly, the professional skills acquired from chemical engineering can be put into relevant use. i just hope that i have the brains for engineering - the immense amount of calculations and physics concepts required appears to be quite daunting as well.

there are several what-ifs still. What if I fail do do well in London? What if I fail to fit into the British culture? What if I come back and find myself ill-competent for the job? at the end of the day, i guess these questions cannot be fully answered for now and i shall leave it to time to find the appropriate answers. All i need to do, i reckon, is to work hard, keep and open mind and continue to learn along the way.

i have been getting quite busy of late and it reminds of the times in Secondary 3 when I had to juggle council commitments and school work. i never had more than 5h of sleep for the entire year i guess. amazingly i still made it into the top 6 in my class despite being 2nd last in the final quarter of the year. i am certainly busy, but i have gotten scared of being idle so...that's a good thing in a way.

Upcoming tasks
13th May - SQN stuffs
9th May- Decision to PUB
19th May - Vesak Day
31st May - Sundown Marathon
and jap, MINDS, guitar, and econs study still goes on.

disturbed you at 6:39 PM